Wooooow it's a while since I posted a blog, and last time I did was... depressing.
So yeah, life's been hectic lately. Had a relationship, that ended, but less said 'bout that the better, k? Had a job, didn't go south, but was only a temp contract so yeah, hi again unemployment. However I have got an interview lined up already, which is cool as technically my contract only ends today, even though my last shift was Friday night. Nice to finally have some money in the bank, intend on saving most of it, but have definitely been treating myself a little. My justification being that A) I fucking worked for 18 months to get that job and B) HOLY FUCK 10 hours on night shift in Sainsburys, three nights in a row, takes a toll on your back! But it was really fun work actually, once I settled into it. Shame it was only seasonal, but it all adds to the CV.
So yeah, considering I'm technically single (There's complications there but that's a whole other story), and unemployed, I actually have a pretty positive outlook on life right now. Have decided to save up for a classic 40s/50s american pickup when I learn to drive, and modify it to a Rat Rod. Am lucky I live in East Anglia in that respect, the air bases mean we have a bigger supply of classic American cars than most other areas in the country. But hey, that's a way off in the future yet.
In the realm of the more-likely-to-happen, I'm looking to restart that Youtube gaming channel with my friends; Emma and Kieran. If nothing else it should be a laugh, but now we can fund ourselves we can get proper mics, editing software and capture cards, meaning we're more likely to stick to it and be able to produce better quality videos! I kinda hope we can actually go somewhere with this though. I'm in a mind set now, having had A LOT of responsibility in my previous relationship, of wanting to take full advantage of the fact that I have no responsibility in life beyond employment and my dog. So yeah, if we can turn this into something big it would be awesome, and I'm definitely willing to put the work in this time, were previously I wavered. A pipe dream of mine recently has been to present a show (Internet or tv, but internet most likely) centered around gaming, whether it's Let's Plays, News or whatever. I'd love to do that, or present a show on Tattoos. I finally got my first tatt and have quickly become obsessed with them. As you can see my confidence exploded. 6 months ago public speaking terrified me now I'm all "Yeah lemme host all these shows it looks like fun." So yeah, oh and also I might be doing some modeling too... (lolwut?) 'Cause apparently my face looks good now.
My life's always been strange, and apparently it's only getting stranger now. But I'm enjoying it. Lot's of change, lot's of opportunities. And you know what? I'm making my own opportunities, because fuck what other people think of me. I may well have fuck all qualifications but I'm going to do what the fuck I want with my life. If it fails, then fine, I'll try something else. But I can't succeed if I don't fucking try.
It's all fun.
~Rusty.
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